Almost there!

Hello again,
Well this is the second last day of my 365 days of blessings!! Wow I am actually getting excited that I have managed to get this far and will finish! I would have to get hit by a bus or something to not finish so I am pretty sure I will. lol Today is something simple like yesterday. I wish I could say I saved up 2 wonderful blessings to be thankful for at the end of this year but I actually didn't think about that until today.
 With everything going on in my life physically, it has been very hard to make long term plans for quite awhile. For a few years I was waiting for surgery and waiting for the call when it would happen. That made it very difficult to make any long term plans. Then with recovery being so unpredictable I have still been unable to really make any real plans because I don't really know when things will improve and I can get back to a normal life. To me this was a long term plan of sorts and even though it was a bumpy road (missing posts here and there) I feel I managed to successfully finish the plan I made. This is the first time in a long time that I have been able to complete a plan I have made. I guess in a way it didn't really depend so much on where I was or what I was doing and more that I would be able to keep up and not give up on it. I still wish I had been able to be where I planned to be by my 30th birthday but life got in the way and looking back I guess it wasn't all bad. I am not in my own home with my own business with a car of my own and to still accomplish that I might need to find a rich guy real quick but I have had a very interesting few years.
 I have learned a lot and that material posessions are not the things to strive for. I have learned how to be more positive through bad circumstances and how not to give up on life. I have learned that I can never really know what is around the corner and not to give up because things can turn around. I am thinking about how depressed I got a year ago and how close I came to ending it all. I swore to myself for years that I would never get to that point. But I am glad that I chose another path and did not give up. I am glad that I spent the last year trying to change how I looked at everything so that I could find the positive in the midst of horrible stuff. Of course there is a lot that I have not shared about the past few years and I probably never will because it is very personal but I can say that I have managed to make it through it so far. Some days I feel like I am going to fall apart into a million pieces but somehow I manage to keep pushing forward. This project has really helped me accomplish that. It isn't anything fancy-I have just made a promise to myself and others (who ever reads this) that I would find something positive every day. I made a public promise I guess to help me stick to it when it seemed next to impossible to keep pushing forward. I am not saying everyone should go out and start a blog like I did but I urge people to look at the positive in your life and focus on it. I do not say this lightly or easily but no matter how horrible it is, there is always something positive to focus on and hold on to. It helps. We all go through horrible stuff- I know that. But I also know that looking for the positive helps make the horrible stuff a tiny bit more bearable and less of a heavy suffocating load that you don't think you can carry another moment. I hope this makes some sense and I hope I have encouraged at least one person to join me in this... to do what I have learned to do this past year... that would be amazing. :) Thanks for reading my blog. :)