Day 359: Independence

Hello again
This post is for Tuesday because I was unable to post again. For this post I am thankful for independence. I had been holding off on posting about this because I had hoped by this point I would be hopefully planning to move out on my own which would be a big step in my independence and something to be very grateful for. But it has not happened yet. I know it will soon but just not yet. Anyways even though I am still not able to be out on my own due to physical and financial reasons-I do have a great deal more independence than I did even a couple years ago. I have mentioned how after the first surgery any independence I had was basically taken away. I could not dress myself and I could not walk around completely on my own. I needed help going to the bathroom as well. I was dependent on other people for my basic needs as well as everything else. It really made me grateful for independence. As I get back every part of it that I had to give up for awhile, I am even more grateful for it than I ever was. You don't really realize how wonderful something is unless you have it taken away. Yes you can imagine and you can have a good idea but unless you have been in that position it is pretty hard to understand. Before the surgeries I did not even understand how amazing it was myself. I hope I never forget how precious it is to be able to get out of bed on my own every morning and put on my own clothes and walk out the door on my own. I remember when I was finally able to take the bars off my bed that I had to use to get myself out of bed. That was a victory to me. I could push myself up and out of bed without any help from bars (on my bed) or people. I was so relieved when I no longer needed my mom to put on and tie my shoes for me or help me get changed. I was able to gain back some dignity and pride. I still require some help in some areas where strength is involved because I still struggle for some reason. In my mind I should be over that by now but that is me being not very patient I guess. It all takes time. I am really looking forward to financial independence and being able to live on my own. The day I can be physically independent that I don't require assistance at all for daily tasks will be really amazing as well. I am definitely looking forward to those things! But I am still very grateful for the independence I already have as well. :) For these reasons I am very grateful for independence. Thanks for reading my blog!