Day 59: Sense of touch

Hi again,
Today has been a very long stressful tiring day and on days like this I like to think about the more meaningful blessings in my life. So today I am thankful for the sense of touch. With my surgeries, I lost feeling in my skin on my upper legs and back (not permanently). Before this happened, I never really thought about being thankful for the sense of touch or being without it. I have had to deal with being careful about spilling hot liquids on my lap because I don't feel it and it can burn my skin without me even knowing. The loss of feeling in the skin on my back was odd also and had it's issues as well. But what was really weird with my back was not feeling someone touching my back when they gave me a hug or something like that. If they pressed hard or patted my back then I would feel it beneath my skin and it would hurt because that area was healing. As I started to regain feeling in my back this year, I would feel sensations and not understand what was going on. It was scary when I first felt my hair brush against a spot on my back that was regaining feeling and I didn't know what was going on. lol It is like I had forgotten what it felt like. It has been interesting being without feeling because I touch my skin and it is like touching someone else's skin. That maybe doesn't seem like a big deal but it was really strange for me. I am regaining feeling in my legs much slower but it is returning. I don't want to ramble on too much on this because for others it may not be that interesting. But I have definitely missed the sense of touch/feeling where I lost it and it makes me so grateful for it where I do have it. I remember a couple months ago and someone gave me a hug and I felt it and I got all excited because I felt it and she didn't understand. lol I had to explain. lol There is a reason we have the sense of touch and I hope I get it all back again. Often I wished that the loss of feeling would have gone deeper than just my skin because I thought maybe I wouldn't have had to deal with the pain of my back healing but I suppose that would have caused other problems. Anyways I am very thankful for the sense of touch and this is why. I hope everyone has a great weekend!