Day 73: This past year

Hi again,
Today I am thankful for the past year or at least I am trying to be. The year started out poorly but by about February/March it started to look more promising and by about August it really started to go downhill again. During October I feel that I really hit rock bottom which is one of the major reasons I started this blog. I feel I have come a ways since October and I feel that I may be ending off the year in about the same position I was in when I started 2010 albeit a little stronger physically. I am not sure how many people follow this blog other than my mom, but to anyone still reading-it really means a lot to me that you feel it's worth your time. Through the ups and downs of this year, I think I have become a stronger person even though it doesn't feel that way sometimes. With what happened in October, I realized that you never know what is around the corner and even when it seems like you can't go on and it can't get better that it can. I am not saying that I no longer get to points in my life where I feel I can't go on but that I know there is the possibility it can get better. I have also learned to to look out for blessings in my life a lot more than I used to and it makes me feel better emotionally when I am always on the look out for blessings in my life no matter how small they may be. I am very grateful for the roof over my head this year, having enough food to eat, having clothes on my back, and all the other blessings I have mentioned. Sometimes my life can seem really bad because I look at what I don't have or can't do but when I look at what I do have, it really isn't so bad. I may deal with a lot of physical pain and I can't work or live on my own yet but I have a family that loves me and a place to call home and a bed to sleep in and food to eat which is not something a lot of people can say. I am hoping that 2011 is better than 2010. Lately I have looked at 2011 and seen it as another year that I have to make it through but maybe it won't be so bad. Maybe this year I will finally be able to start working again and be able to get back on my feet or begin to. Last year I hoped for the same things which causes me to lose some hope but last year I wasn't where I am now and I hadn't gone through a year like I just did if that makes sense. Maybe knowing what I know now and having experienced what I did in 2010 will help 2011 to go better. Anyways I hope that everyone has a Happy New Year and that 2011 is a great year for you!