Monday, October 24, 2011

Day 365: dreams

Hello again,
Well today is the last post. As I have sat here thinking about what to post, I can't help but get distracted thinking about the past year. I had a few nights where things were going so bad that I didn't know if I could honestly come up with anything. Then there were nights where I came up with several and it was tough to choose which one to write about. I always wrote down the others so that I had something for the days I could not think of anything. Then there were days that I wanted to post but couldn't and I had to just accept it and plan to catch up when I was able. It has been an interesting journey for me and I am so thankful for the people who have joined me even just part of the way. Thank you.
For today's post I am thankful for dreams of any kind. I am not just talking about the kind that you have while you are sleeping but the dreams you have for your future as well. I have always had dreams of what my future would look like or dreams of what I want to do with my life and sometimes they are very grand and don't seem the slightest bit possible. Yet I don't limit myself-I let myself dream of what could be even if it is unrealistic. Who says you have to be realistic when dreaming? lol It could be argued that dreams are the same as goals but I see goals as what I plan to do and dreams as what I would love to do whether it can happen or not. Sometimes something seems impossible but it actually ends up happening. I will not get into my dreams for the future here. lol  I don't have a lot-just a few but I like to keep them to myself. :)
Then there are dreams that happen while I sleep. I am thankful for these because I have had several where I actually end up figuring something out while dreaming. They are not common but every so often it happens. I like that. Recently I had one of those and it was kind of nice. :) Others I have are so crazy and out there that they make me laugh so hard when I get to retell them to family or friends. lol I wonder sometimes how I come up with the dreams. lol I find dreams rather personal though so again I don't feel like sharing specifics here but just to say I am thankful for them. To be clear though-I am thankful for dreams and not nightmares. Anyways this is why I am thankful for dreams! This concludes one whole year of blessings!!!! Thanks again for reading my blog! I will post details of what I am planning for the next year either tonight or tomorrow. Stay tuned!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Day 364: My faith

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Well this is the second last post!!! I was thinking and I guess this is a pretty substantial blessing that I chose for today. In my last post titled "Almost There!!" I stated that I didn't have anything wonderful saved for the last 2 posts. But this is pretty wonderful.
Today I am thankful for my faith. I do believe that there is a God and I do pray. I know that there are friends of mine that do not believe there is a God and I respect their views but I also am grateful they don't mind me talking about my faith. I know that some don't understand how there can be a God when so much horrible stuff happens and I am afraid that I do not have the answers to that. But I feel that there has to be a reason for everything and that God can make something positive out of anything that happens. I know that God has the power to stop stuff but doesn't always and I don't know why but I trust that He has His reasons and He is in control and does not make mistakes. I suppose that is faith too. I have seen good come out of horrible circumstances though and I like to think that is God at work. My faith has helped me through a lot of stuff though. It has never ever been rosy and a lot of times I have questioned God and been mad at Him for stuff that happens to loved ones and myself but I also understand He has to know what He is doing-I'm just not happy about it and don't get it. I have witnessed things I can't really explain that prove that there is a God. I have seen stuff happen that in no way can be coincidence and there is definitely a higher power at work. I don't know if it is politically correct to admit my struggles with my faith or not but it doesn't matter to me. I am just being honest here. But all the bumps in the road so to speak have helped me to grow in my faith. It sounds odd but I do feel that way. Having faith has helped me through stuff. I also trust that God isn't there to always take away stuff or prevent it but to help us through it and not leave us to go through it alone. I love the footprints poem because it talks about God walking with us. Knowing I am not alone can be a comfort even while I go through hard stuff because I am not going through it alone. Anyways I should stop here I think. It is getting late. Thanks for reading my blog. :)

Almost there!

Hello again,
Well this is the second last day of my 365 days of blessings!! Wow I am actually getting excited that I have managed to get this far and will finish! I would have to get hit by a bus or something to not finish so I am pretty sure I will. lol Today is something simple like yesterday. I wish I could say I saved up 2 wonderful blessings to be thankful for at the end of this year but I actually didn't think about that until today.
 With everything going on in my life physically, it has been very hard to make long term plans for quite awhile. For a few years I was waiting for surgery and waiting for the call when it would happen. That made it very difficult to make any long term plans. Then with recovery being so unpredictable I have still been unable to really make any real plans because I don't really know when things will improve and I can get back to a normal life. To me this was a long term plan of sorts and even though it was a bumpy road (missing posts here and there) I feel I managed to successfully finish the plan I made. This is the first time in a long time that I have been able to complete a plan I have made. I guess in a way it didn't really depend so much on where I was or what I was doing and more that I would be able to keep up and not give up on it. I still wish I had been able to be where I planned to be by my 30th birthday but life got in the way and looking back I guess it wasn't all bad. I am not in my own home with my own business with a car of my own and to still accomplish that I might need to find a rich guy real quick but I have had a very interesting few years.
 I have learned a lot and that material posessions are not the things to strive for. I have learned how to be more positive through bad circumstances and how not to give up on life. I have learned that I can never really know what is around the corner and not to give up because things can turn around. I am thinking about how depressed I got a year ago and how close I came to ending it all. I swore to myself for years that I would never get to that point. But I am glad that I chose another path and did not give up. I am glad that I spent the last year trying to change how I looked at everything so that I could find the positive in the midst of horrible stuff. Of course there is a lot that I have not shared about the past few years and I probably never will because it is very personal but I can say that I have managed to make it through it so far. Some days I feel like I am going to fall apart into a million pieces but somehow I manage to keep pushing forward. This project has really helped me accomplish that. It isn't anything fancy-I have just made a promise to myself and others (who ever reads this) that I would find something positive every day. I made a public promise I guess to help me stick to it when it seemed next to impossible to keep pushing forward. I am not saying everyone should go out and start a blog like I did but I urge people to look at the positive in your life and focus on it. I do not say this lightly or easily but no matter how horrible it is, there is always something positive to focus on and hold on to. It helps. We all go through horrible stuff- I know that. But I also know that looking for the positive helps make the horrible stuff a tiny bit more bearable and less of a heavy suffocating load that you don't think you can carry another moment. I hope this makes some sense and I hope I have encouraged at least one person to join me in this... to do what I have learned to do this past year... that would be amazing. :) Thanks for reading my blog. :)

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Day 363: mirrors

Hello again,
The finish line so to speak is coming up quickly! Wow this has been quite the year. I know I have said this already but I just wanted to say it again. This is the 3rd last post of 365 posts. wow.
Today I am thankful for mirrors. They come in handy so much-not just to help us see ourselves to get ready in the morning but they also help us when we are driving, slr cameras, telescopes, disco balls (lol sorry couldn't resist adding this in) periscopes, in decorating to make rooms look larger, etc. There are so many uses for mirrors and many of which we use on a daily basis. I am not so sure many of us use disco balls or periscopes on a regular basis but some of the other items we do. lol I would definitely miss having an slr camera or rear view mirrors when driving and very grateful for them. I am also so thankful for mirrors to use when I have something in my eye or to check if I have anything in my teeth. :) I am guessing there are more uses that I have not mentioned that are probably part of very common items but these are just the ones that came to mind. Without mirrors as part of these items it might be very hard to find something to make them work. This is why I am thankful for mirrors.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Day 362: alone time

Hello again,
Today I am thankful for alone time. Time I can be by myself and I don't have to put on a face for anyone and I can be myself. Time that I can spend reading or doing what ever I feel like doing. Time that I can spend on myself. Don't get me wrong-I love to be around people and I love to spend time on others but there are times every once in awhile that I just need to focus on myself. I think we all need that you know? I need to be around people but I also need down time or alone time where it's just me and I can unwind and just be myself. I am thankful that I am able to have alone time because a lot of people just have too much to deal with to have that luxury. I do consider it a luxury and I do treasure it while I have the ability to take time for myself. Sometimes I just like the silence and the ability to hear myself think. Other times I like to listen to music or read or do something that makes me feel better. I was thinking about this today as I sat in front of the wood stove listening to the crackling fire and just having those few moments to myself.... all the stuff from the day over and just noticing how still everything was around me and I could relax and breathe.... not having to deal with any of the drama that often fills our lives... just listening to the sound of the fire crackling. For these reasons I am thankful for alone time.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Day 361: Compassion

Hello again,
Today I am thankful for compassion. The webster's dictionary describes compassion as "sympathetic consciousness of others' distress together with a desire to alleviate it."  Other dictionaries describe it as a deep awareness or sympathy towards others. I am thankful for compassion because without it I think this world would be a much poorer place to live. I do not mean financially of course but in terms of quality of life. Compassion allows us to relate as best we can and sympathize as well as try to make the situation better. I have felt the compassion of others as I have struggled to get through recovery from surgeries as well as other things that I have had to deal with and even if it is just a kind word that someone can offer-that can and does make such a difference.
I think sometimes compassion causes us to feel helpless because we want to help others but we don't know how and we feel we have nothing we can offer. Depending on the situation, a lot of times it is comforting to the person just to know that someone cares and wishes they could do something. Somestimes just saying you wish you knew what to say or you hope things improve is helpful because it shows you care. Often compassion leads to people in other countries having a better life with things like clean water or a roof over their head or education or food because people care and do what they can which is often to donate money to charities doing the work. Compassion really does make the world a better place. Maybe it helps people to understand when someone is suffering and it prevents them from being as hard on that person because that person is not able to accomplish as much. I hope I am able to convey my thoughts clearly-sometimes I feel that it is hard to communicate what I am feeling or thinking. For these reasons I am thankful for compassion

Day 360: that I have made it this far!!!

Hello again,
This post is for yesterday because I was unable to post again due to my back. It has been acting up a lot this week. I have a feeling the last spinal injection is wearing off and I probably need another one. Anyways I am here now so no worries. lol
For this post I am thankful I have made it this far! Wow I am a slight bit surprised-I had my doubts that I would make it even though I know how stubborn I am. lol Once I decide to do something-nothing will ultimitely stop me. There may be things that happen that slow me down but I will always find a way to get it done. :) Anyways I am thankful for making it this far because it has really changed my attitude for the better. It has changed how I look at everything that happens. I have always been someone to try to look for the good in situations but it wasn't always so good. I feel I have really improved how well I can see the good in situations and notice the positive things to be grateful for. There is a fair bit I have kept to myself that I feel is too private to share but I am grateful for those things as well. I have been considering what I will do once I reach Day 365 and I think I will continue but change it up a bit. I will leave you in suspense for now as to what the changes will be. lol I hope that this blog has been helpful or insightful to at least one other person other than myself. That would make it that much more worth it! Of course it is all worth it just for the reason that it has helped me but if it has helped someone else in some way-that would be pretty amazing. :) I would like to say thanks to anyone who has read even one of my posts and a special thanks to anyone who has stuck with me through most of it. Thanks. It means a lot to me if anyone is reading my posts at all. Thanks again for reading my blog-I really appreciate it!

Day 359: Independence

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This post is for Tuesday because I was unable to post again. For this post I am thankful for independence. I had been holding off on posting about this because I had hoped by this point I would be hopefully planning to move out on my own which would be a big step in my independence and something to be very grateful for. But it has not happened yet. I know it will soon but just not yet. Anyways even though I am still not able to be out on my own due to physical and financial reasons-I do have a great deal more independence than I did even a couple years ago. I have mentioned how after the first surgery any independence I had was basically taken away. I could not dress myself and I could not walk around completely on my own. I needed help going to the bathroom as well. I was dependent on other people for my basic needs as well as everything else. It really made me grateful for independence. As I get back every part of it that I had to give up for awhile, I am even more grateful for it than I ever was. You don't really realize how wonderful something is unless you have it taken away. Yes you can imagine and you can have a good idea but unless you have been in that position it is pretty hard to understand. Before the surgeries I did not even understand how amazing it was myself. I hope I never forget how precious it is to be able to get out of bed on my own every morning and put on my own clothes and walk out the door on my own. I remember when I was finally able to take the bars off my bed that I had to use to get myself out of bed. That was a victory to me. I could push myself up and out of bed without any help from bars (on my bed) or people. I was so relieved when I no longer needed my mom to put on and tie my shoes for me or help me get changed. I was able to gain back some dignity and pride. I still require some help in some areas where strength is involved because I still struggle for some reason. In my mind I should be over that by now but that is me being not very patient I guess. It all takes time. I am really looking forward to financial independence and being able to live on my own. The day I can be physically independent that I don't require assistance at all for daily tasks will be really amazing as well. I am definitely looking forward to those things! But I am still very grateful for the independence I already have as well. :) For these reasons I am very grateful for independence. Thanks for reading my blog!

Monday, October 17, 2011

Day 358: tweezers

Hello again,
Today I am thankful for tweezers. Recently I needed my tweezers but could not find them anywhere and it is interesting how much we are thankful for something when we don't have it anymore. I think there is even a song about that. lol Anyways I realized just how thankful I am for tweezers and how hard it is to find something else that can do the same job as tweezers. They are so simple but so useful! Whether needing them for splinters or crafts or plucking a stray hair or two or what ever else we might use them for-they are very useful and I really missed having a pair handy. I have since gotten another pair because the other pair is hopelessly lost. I know this doesn't seem like much but I seriously missed the tweezers! When you have a sliver in your foot-the last thing you want to do is look for the tweezers. I always keep them handy on my desk but they were not there. I still can not figure it out. Anyways I really missed them and really realized how much I am thankful for them. :) So this is why I am thankful for tweezers.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Day 357: Dictionaries

Hello again,
Today I am thankful for dictionaries. I love them because they are very useful in helping me expand my vocabulary. I remember when I was little and I would pick a new word to learn and try to use it in different conversations. lol I also remember trying to read the dictionary once but found there were too many words to read and remember in one sitting. Dictionaries are also great when I come across a word somewhere and I have no idea what it means or I vaguely remember what it might mean. Back before spell check (yes I am old enough to remember life without computers and spell check lol) dictionaries were the way you would find out how to spell words. Spell check on computers has certainly helped to save time but I think it has had it's downsides as well. I won't get in to that here of course. Dictionaries are great for learning new words like I mentioned I used to do as a kid. They are also great because they show how to correctly pronounce words so you don't look like a fool incorrectly pronouncing that new word you just learned. lol There are a lot of benefits to the dictionary. For these reasons I am thankful for dictionaries. :)

Day 356: Memories

Hello again,
This post is for yesterday because I was still unable to post. I feel the need to say that I don't skip posts unless it is absolutely necessary. Lately I have been having a lot of health issues so that is the reason for my absenses. I don't like missing posts or falling behind but the comforting thought is that I can always catch up when I am able to. :) I don't want to make this depressing which is why I do not say much more than I do about what is going on currently. I am just attempting to make a brief explanation why I keep missing posts lately.
For this post I am thankful for memories. I love that we can remember the good times as well as the bad times because we learn from them all. The good memories are wonderful because they make us smile and we can laugh about them with friends and family. I love getting together with friends/family and we talk about the "good times" and smile or laugh so hard we cry. lol I am also thankful for the memories of bad times because they are reminders so we don't make the same mistakes again. They are also good to remind us what we went through to make us stronger. I don't think any of us like to remember the bad times but it is important to remember that we can learn from everything and grow from it. They shape us into who we are. Also simple memories like what it feels like to touch a hot stove are important so that we know what a hot stove feels like and we don't do it again. "Bad" memories teach us if we let them. If we didn't remember that a hot stove hurts us then we would continually burn ourselves because we didn't remember. I do love good memories though and I am so glad I can remember them like Christmas where we all get together and have a good time. I like thinking about the good times when life isn't going so well because it puts me in a more positive frame of mind and it puts a smile on my face despite current circumstances. Sorry for the long post-I could go on for awhile. lol But I think I would just be reiterating what I have already said. So this is why I will stop here. :) This is why I am thankful for memories.

Day 355: puzzles

Hello again,
This post is for Friday because I was unable to post. In an effort to inform without making excuses, I would like to say that health issues escalated on Friday that I could not post. I did manage to avoid going back into the hospital though thankfully. I am very extremely thankful I was able to avoid the hospital this time!
Now to move on to my post. For this post I am thankful for puzzles-the kind that exersize your mind like suduko and crosswords. I have always enjoyed games like this and they have kept me occupied many times when I was bored. Plus it is very fun and fulfilling to be able to finish a puzzle. I feel smart when I finish one. lol It is especially fullfilling when it was a very tough puzzle and I manage to get through it. :) Plus these types of puzzles really help you to exercize your mind and they are proven to help your memory apparently. So I am thankful that I enjoy them already and they do not feel like a chore. I should be able to have a good memory for a long time. lol They are also fun to do with a friend because sometimes having 2 sets of eyes on a puzzle is better than 1. lol This is why I am thankful for puzzles and why I continually bug my family to do them too. lol

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Day 354: not getting lost

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Today I am thankful for those times I am in an unfamiliar area and I don't get lost! I like to say I am directionally challenged. lol I take a lot of scenic routes. :) But when I have an appt it is nice to not be late and not get lost. I don't know what it is really but just have trouble finding my way through residential areas first of all and then also finding my way through places I have never been before. So when I don't get lost I am pretty proud of myself! I am also proud of myself when I get un lost-when I have gotten lost but I manage to find my way back without too much trouble. :) I think I am getting somewhat better though. I don't mind so much that I get stressed though if I get lost. I allow extra time and enjoy the journey I suppose and hope I get to my destination at some point. lol I do find new short cuts though sometimes when I do get lost so that is kind of neat. So I suppose there are benefits to getting lost. :) But I do like when I have no problems and it is easy to get to where I am going to. This is why I am thankful for not getting lost.

Day 353: end of season sales

Hello again,
This post is for yesterday because I was unable to post. But I am here now! lol For this post I am thankful for end of season sales-the time where you get amazing deals on clothing that they are trying to clear out usually before the season is even over. You can still get some use out of the clearance clothes before you have to put it away for next year. :) I am not a big shopper but let's face it-I do need clothes and I have to stretch money where I can so I try to just buy clothing at this time of year or if there are really good sales at other times as well. I haven't been able to make it in to any stores really though yet the past couple weeks but I did get an email from Old Navy so I am pretty sure the end of season sales are starting. Now if I can just get my health/body to co-operate that I can do some shopping, maybe I can get a bit of stuff I need. :) If not I guess I wait till the next sale because I think fall and winter clothes are usually pretty similar for what I need. It does suck though when there are good sales and I can't get out of the house to get stuff. I love getting a good deal. :) Anyways these sales make it possible to get nice quality clothes at cheaper prices than somewhere like walmart where the clothes are not always that nice. I can wear brand name clothing for less than what I would pay at Walmart.  I needed a new pair of sandles this summer and went to Pay Less at the end of the season and got 40.00 sandles for 5.00 and they are nice too! That deal still makes me smile. :) when I look good then I also feel good and I feel confident. For these reasons I am thankful for end of season sales!!

Day 352: movie theatres

Hello again,
I would like to apologize for yet another absense and I hope that things improve soon that I can be up and about more again and keep up with this blog. I want to finish on a good note. lol This post is for Tuesday and for this post I am thankful for movie theatres. I haven't been to one in awhile and usually only manage to go maybe once a year but I really enjoy it when I go. It is so expensive to see a movie in the theatre vs renting, borrowing from the library or buying the movie. I guess it also seems expensive  because I have such a limited budget. Anyways aside from the cost-I really enjoy the whole experience. Sitting in a comfy chair, watching a huge screen where the characters are way larger than life and the surround sound in the theatre. It really is an experience. Maybe since it is something that I can only do once in awhile it makes it more fun as well. That is why I am thankful for movie theatres. :)

Monday, October 10, 2011

Day 351: dry erase boards

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Today I am thankful for dry erase boards. I love my dry erase board! Actually I love my magnetic dry erase board which is so neat! :) How can you not love them? when I have to write something down to remember later but don't need to keep it indefinitely I write it on there. That way I save paper which saves trees and it also doesn't clutter up the landfill! think of all the little scraps of paper you write on and then toss. it does really add up! my dry erase board it is magnetic so I can also use it to put important pieces of paper up on it like coupons or bills I need to pay so that I don't forget. otherwise it can get lost or I don't see it and then it's too late and it can be a costly error. also having something that is 2 in 1 saves space because I don't always need one but need the other or something like that. So I am thankful for mine and what it does for me. :) Thanks for reading my blog!

Day 350: gratitude books

Hello again,
This post is for yesterday because I was unable to post. I can not believe I am on day 350. It has been quite a journey for sure and I think I have learned a lot. I feel I am much more aware of the good things in my life and it has got me through a few pretty tough times. There have been a few times that were really tough to get through and normally it would have sent me downhill emotionally but being able to focus on the positive, I was able to keep my head above water so to speak. I feel what I am going through currently is one of my bigger struggles I have gone through in awhile and I admit it is challenging to stay positive but I am doing better at it than I would have before I started this project. This time it is more a combination of different things hitting me at once but I know I can get through it. I will not go into it any further but I just wanted to say that I have noticed a difference in my life. I do encourage people to make a list as well and try to look for blessings each and every day. Make a habit of looking for them and then before long it seems to become second nature. I am glad I have done this project because it has helped me in many ways. Just 15 days to go!

For this post I am thankful for gratitude books. During this past year I have really been trying to find and read books to do with gratitude and I am thankful for the good ones out there. The first that comes to mind that I feel falls under this category is "The Book of (even more) Awesome" which I highly recommend reading. Another good one that I have read that reminds me of the blessings in my life is "1003 Great things to smile about" It is just a small book but reading it always gets me smiling and I read things that I am grateful for in my own life. It is funny because there are a few that I enjoy but these 2 are the only ones I can think of at the moment. Well that is good I think for now anyways. Maybe at some point I can do a list of books I have read that are really good and I can reccomend them. Thanks for reading my blog!

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Day 349: celebrating Thanksgiving with family

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Today I am thankful that I could celebrate thanksgiving and with my family. It worked out better to have the meal today so my sister, brother in law and nephew could come so we did Thanksgiving today. We had turkey and stuffing and all kinds of other good food. We had fun together and caught up with each other and how everyone is doing. I am really thankful that we could all be together. I am thankful for so many things. I love the thanksgiving holiday because it is a time to really think about all the good in our lives and how much we are blessed and celebrate those blessings. It is a time for family to come together and celebrate with one another. Our family get togethers are relatively small since a lot of my extended family lives half way across the world but it is still very special. It is pretty laid back which I love as well. This is why I am thankful for celebrating Thanksgiving with my family.

Friday, October 7, 2011

Day 348: 2 for 1 blizzards

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Today I am thankful for 2 for 1 blizzards from Dairy Queen. First of all, one blizzard is very yummy but 2 for the price of one is even more yummy! I am thankful that I am part of the blizzard fan club where I get 2 for 1 coupons every few months or so that my family and I can indulge a little. Plus I had a gift card with a bit of money on it still for Dairy Queen so I ended up only paying .48 for 2 blizzards!!!! How is that for amazing? We split the 2 blizzards between the four of us because one is too much for one person. Well for my family and I it is. 2 for 1 is great also because then there is enough for the four of us with just the cost of one. After the last couple of weeks I think a little indulgence was really needed as well. :) Of course they were both chocolate as well. lol So this is why I am thankful for 2 for 1 blizzards.

Day 347: the fridge

Hello again,
This post is for yesterday and I was unable to post due to health issues again. I am attempting to catch up though. :)
For this post I am thankful for the fridge. I was thinking the other day and realized I take the fridge for granted. I only really think about it when the power goes out and food is about to spoil but for some reason I thought about it the other day as I was reaching for something in the fridge. I can not imagine living without a fridge but for some people it is a luxury. It keeps food from spoiling so you don't have to toss stuff because it goes bad. It keeps juice and milk cold and fruit lasts longer when it's stored in the fridge. I suppose this is really simple and not much to say other than it is very useful and I am very grateful to have it. This is why I am thankful for a fridge.

Day 346: Bubble wrap :)

Hello again,
This post is for Wednesday because I was unable to post due to health issues. The same health issues that I had to go to the hospital for a couple of weeks ago. I may not be able to keep up too well this next little bit because I may have to go back into the hospital. I just want to let people know who do read this blog that I may not be keeping up too well for the next bit but that I am doing what I can and I haven't quit. So keep checking back if you don't already follow the blog. :) I appreciate everyone who takes the time to read my blog as well. Thank you. :)

For this post I am thankful for bubble wrap. The reason? Getting to pop it after you take it off the product it was protecting!!! Oh my goodness it is so much fun! It is also fun trying to come up with different ways to pop it. It always makes me smile. :) When I was a kid I would go nuts with it if given the chance. lol I would stomp on it or sit on it or pop it with my fingers or what ever way I could think of. I found it fun to find different and new ways to pop it. How can you not smile when popping bubble wrap? It's an instant mood lifter for me. The stress just "pops" away. lol sorry. I couldn't help it. Plus I am thankful for it because it protects stuff as well. lol For these very simple reasons, I am thankful for bubble wrap.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Day 345: dollar stores

Hello again,
Today I am thankful for dollar stores. I love them. I go in to dollar stores and can find lots of neat stuff cheaper than in a regular store. Of course not everything is cheaper at a dollar store so you have to know your prices if you are looking to save money. But they are generally cheaper. There is also the issue of quality for some items but if you watch what you are getting-you can still end up with quality items. I went to one recently and got some really neat stuff that I haven't seen anywhere for as cheap as I got it. It was also stuff that I needed so yes it is considered a good deal in my books. :) I love the craft isle-I am like a kid in a candy store. lol There are so many craft items to look at in some dollar stores. :) One other great reason to love dollar stores is the holiday decorations or costume pieces. Sometimes you can find really pretty stuff that looks like it cost more than it did. It also looks like it came from a regular store. lol For these reasons I am thankful for dollar stores.

Day 344: thermometers

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This post is for yesterday because I was unable to post. For this post I am thankful for thermometers. There are so many different types and I am thankful for all of them! The type that measures the weather outside is very useful because it tells me if I need a jacket or shorts. Then there are those that measure food temps so you know when something is cooked or not. There are also thermometers to measure if someone has a fever or not which is very important. I am trying to think if there are any I have missed. lol They provide us with very useful information in each case. So that is why I am thankful for thermometers.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Day 343: Fresh home grown tomatoes

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Today I am thankful for fresh home grown tomatoes. We finally got our first fresh vine ripened tomato and had it with supper tonight and there is nothing like a fresh tomato. Even the vine ripened tomatoes you buy in the store don't come close to competing with the freshness of home grown tomatoes. I wish we could grow them year round but our seasons don't allow that. But it makes it all the more exciting to have them for the short time that we do. :) Maybe we could start using grow lights and pollunate our own tomato flowers to get tomatoes inside. lol Anyways I am very thankful that we are able to grow our own tomatoes and enjoy them as well. :)

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Day 342: Antivirus software

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Today I am thankful for antivirus software. I suppose I don't have a lot to say because I have never had a problem so there no great stories to tell. The fact that I have never had a virus infect my computer is due to having good software and I suppose watching where I go on the internet and what I do or don't click on. I have tried a few different types of antivirus software and I think they all basically do a good job. Some have some annoying qualities like stuff popping up all the time while others are pretty good and I rarely even notice they are even doing anything. Currently I am using Trend Micro because I got a year free from being a bzz agent. If you would like to know what a bzz agent is-please click on the link at the bottom. :) So far I am enjoying Trend Micro although I don't reccomend the safe sync if you use Adobe photoshop. Something crazy weird happened between those two programs. Anyways I have been quite pleased with Trend Micro and thankful for the opportunity to try it for free. It does not slow down my computer which is great! Having a virus infect your computer is horrible and a real pain so I am really thankful for the antivirus software!

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Friday, September 30, 2011

Day 341: the stars

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Today I am thankful for the stars and being able to see the stars. Ever since I can remember, I have had a fascination with the stars in the sky. Going outside at night and looking up to see all the millions of stars was and still is a lot of fun. I remember some nights I have gone outside where it has been so incredibly clear and the view just about takes my breath away. There is something so beautiful about all those stars up there. I also learned a few years ago that during the middle of the night there is a time when it is spectacular-more so than any other time of the night. I sometimes get up about 3am because I get hungry and one night I looked out the window and just couldn't believe how many stars were in the sky. I actually stepped outside for a better look and my jaw dropped. You know that moment where something is so beautiful and it litterally takes your breath away? Or if you are like me then you almost fall over because you are still walking and you notice it and don't watch where you are going and run in to something. It was seriously that beautiful. I am thankful for the stars because they are just so beautiful and when I see something beautiful I smile and it feels nice. It is simple really. There are not multiple reasons why I am thankful for this and there doesn't have to be. So this is why I am thankful for the stars.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Day 340:Fly swatters

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I am thankful for fly swatters because they work a lot better than rolled up newspaper. When there is a fly I definitely prefer using a swatter over trying to find something to roll up and hit it with. Plus you don't get fly guts all over your newspaper. I have to admit this is all I have today. It has been a rough day but even though this is something small-I am still thankful for it. Thanks for reading my blog and hopefully understanding that some days are more difficult than others. There are many things I am thankful for today but this is all I can come up with that I have not posted about yet. Fly swatters really do work better and I am very thankful for that. :)

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Day 339: getting caught up

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First and formost I am thankful for getting caught up because it feels great! The reason this came to mind obviously is because I have been attempting to get caught up on my blog. I love that moment that I switch from being behind to being caught up on something whether it's paper work or cleaning or my blog. That feeling of accomplishment that I have finally finished catching up and there is no more left to do. If you feel stress from being behind-then the stress is all of a sudden gone and a weight is lifted. Plus if you are a list maker like me-you get to cross something off the list which always feels great! Plus I have one less thing hanging over my head that I need to deal with. I should mention I don't fall behind on purpose so I can catch up and feel good because it also feels good to not be behind in the first place. But we can't always keep up to stuff that we need to do. I do love the sense of accomplishment and the feeling that I conquered a big task (when it is big). With my blog I feel good that I am finally caught up and I don't need to do double posts anymore... unless I fall behind again. I wish I could have kept up with it but things happen. I just hope that I don't have to go through any more hospital stays that I fall behind again. I will cross the bridge when/if I come to it though. Anyways, these are the reasons I am thankful for getting caught up.

Day 338: my comfy clothes

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This post is for yesterday because I was busy catching up and didn't get to this one. Hopefully that makes sense. When I first started thinking about what to write I was trying to think what happened yesterday and of course the beatles song pops in my head. lol It's funny to me how I say a word and a song pops in my head. Anyways for this post I am thankful for my comfy clothes. I think a lot of people have them-the ones you love to wear when you are at home and you don't need to worry about looking great. I have well worn in jeans I love and a really comfy hoodie. plus a shirt of course. lol they are the clothes I love to wear around the house and curl up in. I like looking good but when I come home I like to change into my comfy clothes as soon as possible. They are worn in and soft and feel nice to wear. Some people like sweat pants or pajamas or what ever. They fit me just nice and they are comfortable. They look presentable as well which is a plus! I feel at ease too somehow like I don't have to worry about staying clean or not spilling on them because it isn't that big of a deal if I do. My movements are not restricted either like some clothes tend to do. For these reasons I am thankful for my comfy clothes.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Day 337: Inspiring quotes

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This post is for yesterday because I was busy catching up on previous posts. This one is really simple. I am thankful for inspiring quotes because they.... you guessed it... inspire me. I have a lot that I love but some stick with me more than others. The top one I think that I think about lots is "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass. It's learning how to dance in the rain." I think I am finally applying it to my life. For me, I am learning to accept the pain I deal with and be happy despite the pain. Just because we are in pain does not mean we can't enjoy ourselves. Or as the quote goes- we can still have fun even during the storms. It isn't easy sometimes but it is well worth it! Another quote I love is "Fairy Tales are more than true; not because they tell us dragons exist but because they tell us dragons can be beaten." GK Chesterton. This one reminds me that I can beat what ever dragon I am facing and to continue fighting. There is also this one as well "Life isn't about the amount of breaths you take but the moments that take your breath away" We don't have to have a long life to have a good life. There are so many more but for now these are what stand out in my mind. Inspirational quotes inspire me to continue when I feel ready to quit. Some may feel the quotes I listed are not really inspirational but they are to me and I think that is what matters. They encourage me to continue or to better my life or remind me that I can get through the tough stuff. For these reasons I am thankful for inspirational quotes.

Day 336: Elevators

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This post is for Sunday Sept. 25 because I was unable to post. The biggest reason I am thankful for elevators is that it saves time when you have to go up like 10 flights of stairs. It also saves me from getting out of breath. :) I do prefer to take stairs when I can but some days my legs do not work the way I want them too and the elevator is a life saver. Other times when you have a bunch of stuff, it is easier to take an elevator than to attempt to lug it all up stairs. If you have a stroller or a wheel chair-elevators make all the difference. Some make me feel funny though if they jerk when they stop and start. You know the feeling-like you are still moving when you aren't. For some people, stairs just are not possible and elevators make it possible to move between floors. For these reasons I am thankful for elevators.

Day 335: Nailclippers

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This post is for Saturday Sept. 24 because I was in the hospital and could not post. Nailclippers may seem odd to be thankful for but they are really so handy and do a way better job on nails than anything else. I have had times I do not have nail clippers and I try to be resourceful and use something else. I have yet to find something that works good. maybe I haven't tried the right stuff but for me-nail clippers are the best. Being without nail clippers when I need them reminds me how much I love them. On Saturday I was without nailclippers when I needed a pair and I was reminded how much I wished I had some. Nail clippers also work great when you are without scissors and need to open a bag or snip off a loose thread.. They work a lot better than teeth do. :) There are a few good uses for them other than nails. So I am thankful for nail clippers.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Day 334: first day of FALL!!!

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This post is for Friday Sept.23-the first official day of fall!! Fall really does start before the first official day but I chose to be thankful for fall on the first official day. Fall is a bittersweet time for me as I have mentioned before but I do enjoy certain aspects of it. I am usually thankful that it is not as hot as summer although this year we never really got summer. This year we got summer heat during the unofficial beginning of fall which I loved. Once I get over mourning the end of summer, I enjoy the colours of the leaves as they turn colour and the days that start out with a bit of bite in the air but turn into warm fall afternoons. I don't like the first frost and what comes with that and I won't get in to that but I feel I must mention it somewhere. There are still parts of Fall I don't like and will never like. lol I also like that fall means we can start wrapping things up outside and not have to do any more weeding when winter comes around. I do enjoy taking my frustration out on weeds and doing stuff in the flower beds but I also enjoy some time off over the winter. I am thankful for the first day of fall because I love it I suppose. I am thankful for things that I love.

Day 333: Beautiful fall colours

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Well this post is for last Thursday Sept. 22 and I find it amusing it was supposed to be post 333 on the 22 of Sept. lol lots of repetition. I have been looking forward to day 333 and wondered if the number 3 is considered an unlucky number or if it is just 13 that is unlucky? if 3 is unlucky then I imagine people who are superstitious may avoid this post. lol Anyways here it is.
For this post I am thankful for beautiful fall colours. I have been taking so many photos lately because the trees look so gorgous with all the rich colours as the leaves turn to gold and red and orange. There are so many beautiful colours and when the sun shines through the leaves, it almost takes my breath away. I am thankful to be able to see such beauty. It is just too bad that it lasts such a short time before the leaves fall to the ground and the trees become bare. If you haven't made time to take a walk outside and enjoy the beautiful colours that fall offers-I strongly encourage you to do that while you still can! Then when the leaves are off the trees it is fun to jump in the leaves. lol For this post I am thankful for the beautiful fall colours. Maybe I might post a few photos on here sometime soon too!

An apology for my absence

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I have not been posting for a few days and would like to apologize for my absence. I have been dealing with some pain in my abdoman that actually led to me having to stay in the hospital for a couple of days. The rest of the time I have been attempting to catch up on rest and do what I can. I haven't been able to sit up much due to the pain I have been experiencing. But I haven't forgotten about my blog and I am not sure I can catch up all at once and I think it might take a few days. But I think I can manage. I guess this is one of those curve balls we all have to deal with in life right? I am not better yet and I am still unsure if I will have to go back in to the hospital but I will deal with it as it happens. If I dissapear again for a few days, it isn't because I have forgotten to write or have stopped writing but that I am just unable to post. I know there are a few people who read this blog and I thank you for taking the time to do so and I hope you will continue despite my inabillity to always post every day. Thanks for your understanding.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Day 332: keyboard shortcuts

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Today I am thankful for keyboard shortcuts. I love them. I am not lazy-just like to be efficient with my time. lol It really does save time using the shortcuts. my favorites are ctrl x and ctrl c and ctrl v. Oh and another favorite - F5. I actually do not know many keyboard short cuts but the ones I know are ones I use a lot. I use more than the ones I have listed but I am just giving some examples of my favorites. Another useful shortcut is ctrl + shift + esc . That brings up task manager for those times when a program freezes and you have to "end task" through task manager. You can also do ctrl + Alt + delete as well and then click on task manager but like I said-I like to be efficient so I like to go to task manager directly. lol Anyways the reason why I am thankful for keyboard shortcuts is very simple-it saves time. This is why I am thankful for keyboard shortcuts.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Day 331: Learning to "dance in the rain"

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Today I want to talk about something meaningful. You may be looking at the title and wondering what I mean so I would like to fill you in. There is a quote that I love and have been striving to personally achieve and it is "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it is about learning to dance in the rain" I think on occasion that I have achieved this in certain circumstances but never fully as a lifestyle. So I have been trying to learn how to live this way-to be happy even during the "storms" of life. There will always be storms in life and we can't stop living while we wait for better weather so to speak. I have never stopped living when things are going bad but I have struggled to be thankful and upbeat during those times.
 The major "storm" in my life as I have seen it is the chronic pain and the long painful recovery from surgeries that I have been dealing with. I have been struggling to be happy and to enjoy my day every day while I am in so much pain. It is easier to have a good day when the pain isn't so bad but when it gets really bad-it does affect me emotionally. But I have been working to change that. This project has been part of my attempt to change how I react to the physical pain.
 The last couple of weeks I have noticed that I am finally starting to catch on. Last week in particular I noticed that I was in a lot of pain but I still found myself having a good day. I had a good day despite the pain I was in. I was able to be aware of and enjoy the good things through out the day and not miss them because I was depressed from the pain I was in. I have been noticing myself laughing more and not the fake laughing that I laugh but don't feel happy, but actually truly happy. I am learning to accept the pain I deal with and that it will always be there and it doesn't have to affect me emotionally. I am not saying it won't ever affect me because I know I will still become frustrated and depressed from time to time but I am able to "dance in the rain" most of the time. I can enjoy my life while I go through this "stuff". I am not saying I am now enjoying the pain because I very much don't and really dislike it strongly but I am just choosing to not let it ruin my day. I find that accepting the pain and not waiting for it to go away is a big help. I don't want to have a bad day every time I deal with pain because I have pain every day and then I will have a miserable life and I don't want that.
I think another big step is that I have to accept my limitations as well and stop pretending they don't exist because I just keep overdoing it and hurting myself and it does no one any favours. I have problems accepting limitations. I tell myself I am fine and convince myself I can do something and then I injure myself when I try to do it. I try to appear normal so people don't stare or wonder what is wrong with me. I try to fit in with other people so they will accept me and let me be their friend. But this has just caused me pain because I hurt myself doing stuff I shouldn't be doing. I also do stuff because I don't like to ask for help but that is another issue entirely. lol Anyways this is a bit off topic. Wow I am really sharing a lot tonight. I will probably regret posting some of this later. lol Anyways, I feel proud of myself that I am learning to "dance in the rain" and thankful for it because it makes my day so much more pleasent. It also makes me a much more pleasent person to be around too I think. lol I do like having good days. :) Thanks for reading my blog and for reading this post.

Monday, September 19, 2011

Day 330: Pictures that make me laugh

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Today I am thankful for pictures that make me laugh. You know-the ones that you look at and they are so funny that you can't help but burst into laughter. You can't help but laugh no matter what mood you are in because the photos are so funny. I love the photos that I get by accident that are really funny because of the expressions on people's faces or what ever my cat happens to be doing the moment the camera takes the photo. Today I captured a photo like that and it makes me laugh. I don't know if it would make other people laugh as much but I will post it at the bottom. Maybe part of the reason it's funny to me is that it's apparently talk like a pirate day and he sort of looks like he is a pirate talking. lol just imagine the eye patch and him saying "Ahoy Matey" or "hardy har har". Anyways I was trying to get photos of my cat who was laying so cute and he decided to lick his mouth at the same time. I chuckle just thinking about it. These kinds of photos make me laugh which helps brighten my mood and I feel better. This is a very good thing of course. :) Well this is the simple reason why I am thankful for pictures that make me laugh. I hope the picture below makes you chuckle as well. I was sort of having fun with it in Adobe as well which is why the background was taken out. Feel free to add your own caption in the comment area as well. :)

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Day 329: Ladders

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Today I am very thankful for ladders. They get us that much higher when we are not tall enough to get where we need to be.... or want to be. They are a safe way to get higher up as well. The reason I thought about this today was that I really wanted to take a photo of a sunflower but it is about 10ft tall and I am not that tall. I had tried to stand on an over turned 5gallon pail but I still wasn't high enough to get the shot I wanted. So I found a ladder that I could take a photo straight on like I wanted to. If I didn't have a ladder then I would not have been able to take the photo I wanted. The sunflowers grew very tall this year. Ladders are useful for so many things and I am very thankful for all the times I have needed a ladder and have had one. There have been times I have tried to climb on stuff because I didn't have a ladder and it doesn't always go very well. It can be very painful when it doesn't go well. Ladders are usually sturdy too.... as long as you have them on a good flat surface. For these reasons I am thankful for ladders.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Day 328: Paper Shredders

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Today I am thankful for paper shredders. There are times when we have sensitive stuff that we don't want to risk someone else getting a hold of it so we like to shred it. Things like old credit cards even go through our shredder so that is nice as well! At a time when identity theft seems to be so common, it is nice to be able to do all we can to protect sensitive information about ourselves. Without a paper shredder we would have to find other ways to destroy it and it would probably not be as efficient as the shredder is or as quick. I really appreciate having access to a shredder. I suppose I could train my cat to shred the paper but he might start shredding everything which would not be a good idea. lol This is why I am thankful for paper shredders.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Day 327: Michaels daily deal

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Today I am extremely thankful for the Michaels daily deals that they have. I am thankful for it because today they had a deal on artist canvases and I have been considering getting back into painting for awhile now but needed a bit of a push to do so. Well seeing the deal on the canvases that made them affordable was the push I needed I suppose. This may seem odd but I am a bit apprehensive about painting again. I decided a week ago finally that yes I am going to try it again but I still haven't found time to sit down and get started. Painting was something I had to give up after I had the surgeries because I haven't been able to sit up long enough to really get anywhere with a painting. I could have got back into it already last year but I have been scared that I have lost the ability to paint. It has been 4yrs now since I last painted. I am hoping that it is still there because I actually didn't even start painting till I was in highschool. I had never picked up a brush before then and then one day I tried painting and it wasn't too bad. Of course I have spent my life drawing so I have some techniques from that I suppose. Anyways, the wrapped canvases are not cheap normally so to have the daily deal at Michaels today made me very excited. :) Maybe I can create a masterpiece! lol It was good timing to have this deal. Now I just have to sit my butt down and do it. lol This is why I am thankful for Michaels daily deals.

Day 326: hitting all green lights

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This post is for yesterday because I was unable to post. Have you ever had a time where you go in to town and every light is green? I have had this very rarely but it has happened. More often when I get more green lights it is almost every light green or half the lights green. Then there are the times that you just squeak by as the green light turns yellow which is nice too. On occasion I experience getting practically every single light red and it is a great reminder how nice it is to be the one with the right of way. It really does make a difference in time if you happen to get more green lights or more red lights. I love getting the green lights when I am running late. lol It is just like this amazing thing to make up for my mistake of running a bit late. I never expect the lights to be all green though and I plan time for traffic and what not so I am not late so that if I don't get the traffic or red lights I am just a bit early which is never a bad thing.... except if I am going to the dentist which is somewhere I don't want to be. lol I don't want to look too eager to be there. lol It is so nice when I get lots of green lights-it makes me smile. It is like I am having a lucky streak or something. lol I also feel good when I arrive at my destination on time or early because I know I am not causing others to wait. I know everyone's time is important and it is a sign of respect to show up on time. So having mostly green lights and what not is nice because I don't run late and not feeling rushed and bad that I am late. So there are definite benefits to getting green lights. lol This is why I am thankful for green lights.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Day 325: Warranties

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Today I am thankful for warranties. They are a life saver and they can save a lot of money! But I should be clear that while I am a fan of warranties, I am not a fan of extended warranties. Extended warranties are almost always a waste of money. Yet there are some products that it is useful for but I won't get in to that here. A month ago I bought a computer for a really good deal but I would like to say it was pretty much doa (dead on arrival) So my dad and I took it back explaining what was wrong with it. Future Shop was great because the computer has a warranty and Future Shop is great about exchanges and what not. So they got me another computer but they didn't have any more of the same model (because I got a refurb model) so they gave me a "similar" model. I actually ended up getting a good deal because the "similar" computer was better than the initial one I got. Of course they can't give me a worse computer than I paid for I guess and they didn't have a computer exactly the same size. It is pretty much identical but a bit bigger hard drive. Anyways, 3 weeks later the DVD drive quit which isn't much of a surprise because it never quite sounded right to begin with. So back to future Shop I go. Thankfully it is still under warranty and they could not fix it so I am now on computer number 3. lol Without a warranty I would have to keep buying a new computer. We take warranties for granted maybe but we could very well not have them as well. Can you imagine the cost if you had to get a new product every time instead of getting it fixed or replaced? I could barely afford one computer and there is no way I could afford 3. Anyways this is just something I have been thinking about. I hope I don't have to bring this one back. Fingers and toes crossed! lol Sorry for the length of this post but I wanted to explain my reasons and it's a bit of a long story. Hopefully this is the end of this story though.... for awhile at least.Well this is why I am thankful for warranties.

Day 324: The book of (even more) Awesome

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This post is for yesterday because I was unable to post. For this post I am thankful for a specific book because it is really amazing and it has helped me see even more wonderful things in my life. It is called The Book of (even more) Awesome. The author lists a ton of things that are awesome and I love almost all of them. lol I will give you some examples. One is "Picking the fastest moving line at the grocery store" which is very much awesome! Also something to be grateful for!! Another great one is "Dropping your cell phone on the ground and then realizing it's totally fine" This is also something to be very grateful for!! I have actually dropped my phone and miraculously it is fine still. lol That is only 2 and there are so many! I highly recommend reading it because it reminds us of all the "awesome" things that happen in our day to day lives that we can be thankful for. This is why I am thankful for "The Book of (even more) Awesome"

Monday, September 12, 2011

Day 323: Clouds

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Today I am thankful for clouds. The reason I am thankful for clouds today in particular is that it is that time of year where it can freeze and clouds keep the temperature from falling as much which decreases the chance of frost. Clear nights are not good if you do not want it to freeze. Also a few clouds make sunsets and sunrises so much more beautiful than if there are no clouds at all. Of course if there are so many clouds that you can not see the sun then it isn't very pretty. This is why I am thankful for clouds.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Day 322:Vegetables fresh from the garden

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It seems hard to be thankful on a day like today. Or at least my feelings are mixed because something horrible happened 10yrs ago but so many lives were saved as well that could have been lost. It is sad how I don't even have to say that it is 9/11 and what that means. We have all been affected either directly or just from hearing the news and watching it all happen. 10 years ago today over 3,000 lives were lost. But this is still a blog about blessings and it is the dark days that we need to try even harder to remember the good in our lives. It is on the anniversaries of horrible events that we need to remind ourselves of the blessings or we will get dragged down. Yes it is important to remember the bad times but we need to be careful not to get stuck there. So if it is ok- I would like to share what I am thankful for today.
Today I am thankful for vegetables fresh from the garden. Right now the beans, carrots, potatoes, peas, tomatoes are all getting ready and eating them fresh from the garden is so amazing. :) I love it. You have not tasted fresh until you have picked it and ate it on the same day. It is especially wonderful when you have grown it yourself and you can really appreciate it. I love that I can have fresh vegetables from the garden and know what it tastes like. I am so grateful for that. So today I am thankful for vegetables fresh from the garden. :)

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Day 321: Parkinson's Superwalk

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Today I am quite thankful for the Parkinson's Superwalk that raises money for Parkinson's. My dad has Parkinson's so it is something that is very close to me in terms of how much it affects me and how much I care about finding a cure. He has had the disease for about 18yrs but is able to control the symptoms quite well with medication most of the time. We walk when we can and practically every year in the past 10yrs we have made it to the walk. We have missed a couple. I missed one more than the rest of my family because I was having surgery and then recovering from it. This year I managed to walk but not the whole way because I am still having difficulty going very far due to my back still not back to normal and I was also the volunteer photographer so it worked well to cut it a bit short. I walked most of it though. I wanted to be sure to be able to get photos of people coming back and passing the finish line. Since I still have difficulty walking very far due to my back I definitely used everything I had to get through the walk but it was very much worth it. :) I am glad and honoured to be able to do this and raise awareness and money that goes towards finding a cure. It can be very difficult at times watching my dad deal with the symptoms of Parkinson's and I wish so much I could make it better for him but I can't so I do what I can do. The walk is one way to help. I had fun playing photographer for a day. :) I want to do it as a career maybe eventually but I am no where near that yet so this was fun in the meantime. I hope the photos are ok. It was a lot of fun to be able to snap pictures and people knew I was taking photos for the walk and not some weird person taking everyone's photos. It was all in all a great day and I loved being able to contribute in what ever way I could. I love that there is a walk every year raising money and that there is hope that a cure can be found. I loved that there was such a great turn out as well and alot of money was raised. I also hope that in the future people won't have to live with the effects of Parkinson's. Thanks for reading my blog and this is why I am thankful for the Parkinson's super walk.

Day 320: Reusable bags

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This post is for yesterday because I honestly got sidetracked and forgot. I have been really focused on the Parkinson's Superwalk and it was the night before and I had nothing else but it on my brain. lol Anyways for this post I am thankful for reusable bags. This seems like a no brainer that I should have thought about posting a long time ago already but I guess there has always been something else. I love reusable bags now that they are more uniform in size. I used to be a cashier years ago and loved people using reusable bags (because they are good for the environment) but hated the funny shaped ones that didn't fit in the bag wells or didn't stand up very well. There were a lot of bags that didn't have a nice flat bottom or were too big to fit on the bag wells and it was a bit of a headache to try to put stuff in them. Now they are much more uniform and have nice flat bottoms and stand up quite nicely  on their own.
Almost every store seems to sell them and they are cheap as well when you consider the amount you use it. Some are made from recycled materials as well. Some stores will actually exchange bags once they have worn out with a new one at no extra charge. We have a lot of bags from Superstore and have had them for a few years and use them often and they have yet to show any signs of wear. We still get asked if they are bags we have purchased already. lol So we have come up with a strategy that we use bags from Walmart in Superstore and the other way around so there is no confusion. lol Yes I shop at Superstore and Walmart as well as any other store that has good prices.
Another great reason that I am thankful for reusable bags is that we don't have plastic bags piling up in the house. We have one of those bag ladies that you stuff with bags and it used to be that she would always be rather plump and bags were practically not fitting anymore because she was stuffed so full. Now she almost always has some room. :) Even with reusable bags we somehow have plastic bags entering the house.
I also love reusable bags because they are stronger than plastic bags. I hated the times where you are carrying stuff out to the car and the bag rips open and groceries end up all over the ground. Plastic is not designed to even last one use it seems. As you can see-I am very thankful for reusable bags and could go on but I won't. For these reasons (and many more not listed) I am thankful for reusable bags.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Day 319: being chosen to get a Kindle!

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Today I have had one of the best days in quite awhile! I am a member of a website called Bzz Agent where you take part in campaigns that you get to try a product for free. Then you are supposed to tell people about your experience with the product and that you are a "bzz agent". Once you have done that, you tell bzz agent who you have talked to and your experience with the product and what you talked about with the people you talked to. One part of it is about promoting a product through word of mouth. Here is a quote from the bzz agent website about it because they explain it better than I do. lol.  "You try products and services and share your honest opinions about them with people you know. Then you tell us about those conversations to help companies improve their products. That's it! There's no obligation, no nonsense and no pressure." It really is that simple-trust me! Of course you don't get invited to every campaign there is because you may not fit the demographic or what ever. Anyways they are doing something a bit different where they have products for campaigns and they have it open to people to tell them why we deserve to be part of the campaign. Then they choose the best for the campaign. I desperately wanted to be part of the kindle campaign because I have been wanting one for ages! So I submitted blog posts why I thought I deserve to be part of the Kindle campaign. This morning I got the email saying I got in!!! I now get a free kindle to try out and then I get to tell people about my experience and I am so excited about it! I love that I can have an impact on the products in the market. This is one way to do that. Plus I get products to keep! I am already bzzing with excitement. lol I truly can not wait! 
I suppose I have done more promoting for bzz agent than I have explaining why I am thankful for getting chosen to get a kindle. lol I have been saving for awhile now but it is so very slow going because I don't have much money coming in. This way I can get a kindle without having to wait probably another year to save up enough. I can make use of it now and not wait. I have been doing alot of writing tonight so I am going to leave it at this. I apologize if this is not one of my better posts. Thanks for reading my blog. :)

Day 318: changing seasons

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This post is for yesterday because I was unable to post. For this post I am thankful for the changing seasons. I have to admit that I do not initially like summer changing to fall-in fact I really hate it. I hate it because all my flowers freeze and die and the trees will lose their leaves and the thought of the beauty of summer fading is so sad. But then I see the colours of fall and I move from hating it to loving a new season with all it's glory. Fall is kind of neat in it's own way and while I hate saying good bye to summer, I also like saying hello to Fall. One season I continue to dislike is winter. I can't quite enjoy the cold. But I love that winter leads to spring and without winter, spring would not be nearly as beautiful. I suppose having change is nice and not just one long season where nothing really changes except a slight change in temperatures. I do enjoy the differences that each season offers... well almost every season. lol But Winter has the advantage of giving us all a break from weeding which I am grateful for. lol Oh plus the bugs are not around so I don't have to deal with spiders. hehe. Spring is when everything that has been asleep comes alive again and summer is when the long days provide lots of sunshine (usually) and fun. Fall is just magnificent with all the gorgeous colours. I love walking outside in the fall and just taking in the breathtaking view because it is so beautiful. Summer definitely has it's own beauty with all the flowers and I would love to keep that colour but then I would miss out on other stuff. It is also easier to take though when summer temperatures extend into September. :) I am loving the heat we are getting right now! Anyways this is why I love the changing seasons.

Day 317: Poetry

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This post is for Tuesday because I have been unable to post. I actually didn't realize I was so far behind because I thought I posted on Tuesday which I did but I was posting for Monday. It got too late to catch up. I apologize. For this post I am thankful for Poetry. I am thankful for it because it is often so beautiful and rhythmic and I love listening to people reading it. I also love to read it as well. I suppose I should say I am thankful for good poetry because not all poetry is good. There is some really bad stuff out there. lol Poetry to me is an art form-a beautiful way to share thoughts and feelings that is more than just writing it down. I am thankful for it because it evokes emotion in me when I read good poetry. It leaves me feeling like I experienced something. I always find it so fascinating how grouping words together can become something so powerful and stir emotions so well. I have been told I write well (which may or may not be true) but I can write well and not be able to write poetry. Maybe I would be able to but I haven't had success with it yet. Poetry is more than just words that rhyme. Anyways I will leave it at this because I feel I am struggling to do it justice. I am thankful I have been able to experience good poetry. 

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Day 316: Labour Day long weekend

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This post is for yesterday because I was unable to post. For this post I am thankful for the Labour Day long weekend. Long weekends are nice and with long weekends come long weekend sales. :) lol Also it is usually the last long weekend that it is possible for nice weather to go camping one last time if you are able. The next long weekend it is probably too cold to go camping unless we have some odd warm spell that we don't get snow for a long time. It is also a reminder that fall is coming and we should start planning stuff that needs to be done before it starts getting cool. The only downside to long weekends is that the week starts on Tuesday and I think it is Monday. lol But on the plus side you have a shorter work week. :) It is also a good day to give yourself a pat on the back for all the hard work you do (assuming you have worked hard I guess?). For these reasons I am thankful for the Labour Day long weekend.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Day 315: The Wii

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Today I am thankful for the Wii. I don't go on it as much as I maybe should but I am thankful for the Wii fit because it helps me get moving on days I can't move around outside. It seems I only go on it during the fall and winter months and I have started on it again. lol I guess spring and summer it feels nice outside and I rather go outside for a walk or what ever I want to do. But it does give me an option when  I don't feel like going outside due to the weather. It is rather fun as well. I got the Wii after my surgeries to have something to help me work on my balance and start moving around slowly to regain mobility. I got a bit carried away though sometimes and ended up hurting myself. So I found it is great as long as you are careful. I was surprised that you can actually get out of breath while using Wii Fit. There are different levels so you can be challenged what ever level you are at. There are lots of games you can buy for the wii but we haven't really bought many others for it. I have seen some neat games though to exercise your mind as well which would be neat. Maybe sometime in the future. Anyways for these reasons I am thankful for the Wii.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Day 314: My duvet

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Today I am thankful for my duvet. This is not just any duvet but a duvet my mom made for me. We used to have sheep and we got a bunch of their wool made into batting and my mom made each of us a duvet with it. Wool duvets are absolutely amazing. I find they hold heat in well but you don't get too hot. I can use my duvet year round. The past few days I had to get it fixed because I got a rip in the fabric and I haven't had it and realized just how much I love it and I am thankful for it. I have been using blankets and a comforter and it is crazy how much of my body heat escapes. With the duvet-I use it year round and I never have to add any blankets on top or take any off. I feel so thankful also because of how costly these types of duvets are to buy in a store and I didn't have to pay that kind of money for it. For these reasons I am thankful for my duvet.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Day 313: email

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Today I am thankful for email. I love email because I find it much less intrusive than a phone call. People can answer emails when they are able. With phones, we often feel the need to answer it despite being in the middle of something. Or if you don't answer it, it is still an annoying interruption to what ever you are doing. Of course phones have their place and I am thankful for them as well but email does too. Email is also much cheaper than phones if you are many miles apart because phoning gets pricey with long distance charges. I find I am able to be much more clear by gathering my thoughts and writing them down and being able to delete something if I find that it isn't maybe what I want to say. When you talk on the phone, you say something and it is out of your mouth and you can not take it back. With email you can think about what to say before writing it and sending it. I find emails are good because I can go back to them if I forget a point someone made or if we make plans to meet and I forget the time, it is easy to go back and reread the details. Unless you have a way to record phone calls, it is very difficult to go back to a previous conversation. Also when emailing I can think about what someone says before responding and think about what I will say before responding because sometimes I don't feel I have time to think about what they said and I have to say something back right away. I love talking in person and in some cases prefer it but there are times where email is better. You can send emails at 2am if you want to but you can't call someone at 2am. Well unless you have a really wonderful understanding friend. lol There are many reasons I like email and I am thankful for it. thanks for reading my blog. :)

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Day 312: the tv still works

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Today I am thankful that the tv still works without the digital converter box and the digital antenna that we were told we needed to be able to watch tv after it switched to digital. Today the signal switched to digital apparently even though it doesn't really look any different. Maybe with the digital converter box it would be much clearer? I really don't know about that but I do know that it still works and I am thankful for that and happy about that. It isn't that we watch that much tv but we can avoid having to hook up extra stuff which no one really has time for. Yes even something that will only "take a few minutes" is a difficult task to complete sometimes. Plus we don't have to spend almost 150.00 that the Future Shop guy said we would have to spend to be able to get a signal after the switch. lol For these reasons I am thankful the tv still works. :)

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Day 311: Freezers

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Today I am thankful for freezers. What caused me to think about this was when I put something in the freezer and usually it is just automatic but this time I paused and thought about how hard it would be to not have a freezer. Not to make people feel old but there was a time when freezers didn't exist and then they were seen as a luxury. I am sure there there are still people who do not have a freezer. Freezers make food last longer. Freezers are great when you do a bunch of baking and store it in the freezer so you don't have to do baking every day or every week-you can pull some out of the freezer as you need it. You can buy larger amounts of meat and pay less at the same time and store it in the freezer. Chocolate lasts a very long time in the freezer. Marshmallows don't go hard in the freezer.  It would be impossible to buy ice cream if we didn't have a freezer unless we would eat the whole carton in one sitting. lol Our freezer is always full and we save money that way. We store fruit from the summer in the freezer so we can enjoy the surplus from summer over the winter. There are many benefits to freezers. I can not imagine being without one. For these reasons I am thankful for freezers.

Day 310: Free ice cream

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This post is for yesterday because I was unable to post. First I would like to say that I am kind of surprised I haven't wrote about ice cream. I thought for sure I had because I absolutely love ice cream. Secondly, I have to admit I am starting to run stuck some days and I have to think on what to post for a bit. I have posted over 300 blessings and some are material but I am still very thankful to have them. So I suppose it isn't so awful that I am starting to have to really think about it. I am thankful for free ice cream today. Awhile back there was a promotion with General Mills Cereal that if you bought a box then you get a coupon for free ice cream. Well we had a couple and the coupons expire today so I had to use it despite still having some ice cream in the freezer. I love ice cream first off and to have free ice cream is even better!!! Gone are the days you get cheap little toys that you toss with in a week or they break within a week. Now cereal has free ice cream and free books/magazine subscriptions or free beach towels etc. Sometimes the quality is not so good still but what do you expect? It is a free product in a cereal box and it can't always be very good quality. I like the freebies that are food because it is usually for something brand name and you can pick it up in the store and not wait for Canada post to get it to you with the chance you never even see it because it gets lost or goes to the wrong address. I do like the free books though too. Anyways I love free ice cream. :) I am also thankful for free ice cream and I hope it is a promo that they have again next year. :)

Monday, August 29, 2011

Day 309: winning contests

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Today I am thankful for winning contests. Well one in particular anyways. I won the first thing every today!!! Well technically I have won a radio birthday contest before too I guess. Anyways this is the second time I have won something. lol I became a member of Cat Chats and it is this great online forum where you talk about cats. I am a cat lover and have a cat and love the forum. :) They had a contest where you answer some questions about your cat and you get entered for a 20.00 amazon.ca gift card. I wasn't answering the questions to win anything because I really don't have much luck normally. Well I was very pleasantly surprised this morning to discover I won!!! This was definitely the highlight of my day and made me feel good. I wonder if technically I should order something to do with cats though. lol It is fun to win stuff. :) For these reasons I am thankful for winning contests and I hope maybe my luck is slowly changing. :)

Day 308: Dropbox

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This post is for yesterday because it got too late. For this post I am thankful for dropbox. It is quite a neat and easy way to share photos with people. When I have more than a couple photos to share it gets annoying to send them over email. That is where dropbox comes in. I can just drag and drop files and share with anyone who has dropbox as well. It is really simple and takes very little time. For these reasons I am thankful for dropbox. Oh if you would like a referral link I would be more than happy to give one. lol

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Day 307: frogs

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This post is for yesterday because I was unable to post. For this post I am thankful for frogs. I think they are cute and there seems to be a lot this year most likely because it has been so wet. Recently I was outside doing some stuff and came across a little wee one. It was really cute but very frightened because I almost put something right on top of it. I was able to pick it up in my hand and take a photo. I have attached the photo below. They are very useful as well as cute. Yes some may wonder how I find this little guy cute but to me he just is. :) Maybe his size makes him cuter. They eat lots of insects which I think is useful. I am hoping the frogs are not picky and don't mind eating some of the aphids that are really bad this year. But I don't know how picky they are about what they eat. Anyways I am thankful for frogs.



Friday, August 26, 2011

Day 306: old tv shows on dvd

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Today I am thankful for old tv shows on dvd. Often I find myself wishing that there would be more shows like there used to be and there isn't so the next best thing is watching the old shows on dvd. Currently my family and I are working our way through "The Waltons"and it was on before I was even born but it is still such a great show! I should mention that I know there are some good shows on currently as well but they seem so few and far between. We worked our way through the Dick Van Dyke show as well which was another wonderful show. We watch one episode a night so it takes awhile to get through a show. We are now on Season 8 I think of the Waltons. I do watch some tv on tv but not alot. Plus when you watch a show on dvd you can skip all those annoying commercials. It is nice not having to sit through commercials or fast forward through them. If the old shows were not on dvd available to watch then it would be sad because alot of people would miss out on some wonderful shows. For these reasons I am thankful for old tv shows on dvd.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Day 305: wheel chair accessability

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Today I am thankful for something that may seem odd so I should explain. As you may or may not know, I am still dealing with trying to gain back my strength from having 2 back surgeries. I had to use a wheel chair for a short time after the surgeries but I no longer need a wheel chair. In that sense I am really thankful for the wheel chair accessibility because it made getting around much easier. But right now I still deal with difficulty with lack of strength and opening heavy doors to office buildings is a big issue. Those wheel chair accessibility buttons that you press to open a door are often a necessity for me to be able to enter buildings. I may not be in a wheel chair but I still can't open doors very easily. What made me think about this today is because I had to go to the Provincial Building and they have one wheel chair accessible entrance but it is on the other side of the building which is difficult for me to get to. So I tried to use the other entrance which isn't so hard to get to but it isn't very accessible to me because the doors are so heavy. I ended up hurting my back and arms trying to get into the building. I managed to just barely pull it open far enough to squeeze through and it almost shut on me. For the life of me I really can't understand why doors need to be that heavy. I am thankful for the lady that helped me open the second set of doors because I would have been in a ton more pain if she hadn't of been there when she was. I am so thankful for the buildings that have the doors that open for you because often I need them to get in. It is difficult to have someone with you while you run errands just so you can get in to buildings. Sorry if this seems somewhat negative today. I am in a lot of pain and frustrated because I thought the other entrance was blocked due to construction so I tried the other entrance and wish I had checked for sure. I am frustrated that they don't make that building accessible from each entrance. But it reminded me almost instantly of all the buildings that are accessible in that way and it helped lessen the negative feelings of the situation. Thanks for reading through this post and bearing with me. Someday I will be strong enough and not need assistance but right now I do and I am thankful for it when ever it is available!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Day 304: bzzagent.com

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Today I am thankful for bzzagent.com because it is a great site where you get to try out neat stuff and then you "bzz"about them. What happens is there is campaigns for products that bzzagents are invited to join in on and then you can sign up or pass on it. Then you try the product for free and share your opinions on it through face to face or social media or what ever communication you have. It is really fun. Then the feedback helps the companies I think and word is spread about good products. I think that is how it goes anyways. I have not been part of very many and I am not sure why exactly but when I do get the chance to be part of one I usually sign up. It could be I don't fit certain demographics that they are looking for or maybe I am not involved enough on the site? Anyways I was invited to another campaign today that I am super excited about! I get to try Trend Micro Titanium for one year free!!! I don't think I have ever had a campaign this exciting. Plus it comes at the perfect time when my Norton is about to expire so now I don't have to buy another program! Plus I get to try it out and find out what I think of it and they may possibly gain a new customer when this is over. I like being a part of bzzagent for the times when they have campaigns on products I see in the store but am not sure if I should spend the money on it or not. Because of bzzagent I find out how well the product works and I can share with my family and friends as well and they have a first hand account verses some advertising that no one really ever believes anyways. I think the companies that use bzzagent are smart because they possibly gain more customers through these campaigns if their products are good. Plus I love trying something free! You can not beat free. There are a lot of reasons to be thankful for www.bzzagent.com ! I don't think I have probably covered everything but if you are interested in learning more-feel free to check it out! For these reasons I am thankful for bzzagent. Thanks for reading my blog. :)

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Day 303: Accomplishing goals

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Today I am thankful for accomplishing goals. Goals can be as little as getting a room cleaned up or big like getting through college. I feel very good about myself when I am able to accomplish a goal I have set and I am thankful for that. I set a lot of goals-short term and long term. But I am also flexible with them because I have learned the hard way that there are many curve balls in life and life never really goes like I plan it to or the way I think I want it to go. But I set goals none the less. With out goals I feel I am sort of wandering aimlessly through life and not going towards anything. Sometimes I accomplish them and sometimes it doesn't work out and when I do accomplish something, I feel very good. So for that reason I am really thankful for the times I accomplish goals. Plus what ever I set out to do usually is to make my life better in some way so when I accomplish something, I should be better off which is also very good. Today I am thankful for accomplishing goals.

Day 302: snackfood

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This post is for yesterday because I was unable to post due to a migraine. For this post I am thankful for snackfood because I love it. Yes I love snackfood. I admit it. Right now I am into cheesies. I don't know why it tastes so good but it does. Popcorn is good too. I don't eat lots of snackfood but it is nice once in awhile. When I am craving sweets then I go for reese puffs. lol Yes the cereal. I don't like it for breakfast because it has too much sugar but as a snack it is great. :) Plus it isn't as bad for me as some other stuff I could choose to snack on. There isn't much more to say about snackfood and why I am thankful for it. I think this one is self explanatory maybe? Thanks for reading my blog.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Day 301: the shade

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Today I am thankful for the shade. Today was the hottest day all year even though we didn't quite reach 30. Only 1 single degree off!! sooo close. But it was a nice hot day and wow it was nice! But it was even nicer in the shade. On a day like today the shade was a life saver if I wanted to be outside. This afternoon was a bit too hot for me to be in the sun very long-not that I am complaining though! Because of the heat, it made the shade very very nice. I took my cat out with me to go lay in the shade with a good book and we had a great time just taking it easy. I had my book and read awhile and I wish every day was like this. I wish I could be lazy like that every afternoon too but then it wouldn't be so special. :) My excuse is that it is Sunday so I am supposed to take it easy right? lol I would not have had such a good time if it wasn't for the shade though so I am very thankful for it.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Day 300: Energy

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Today is Day 300!!! I have to admit some days I was a bit skeptical I could even make it to day 300. Some posts have not been so meaningful but every post does mean something to me.
Today I am thankful for energy. The energy I have right now is limited so I am thankful for every bit of it that I have. I look at my nephew and all the energy he has and wish I could tap into it somehow. lol But we have what we have and I am thankful for what I do have because I could have less. I have had less and I have experienced more energy too. I am thankful for the high level of energy I used to have as well. As I continue to recover from the surgeries I had, I do see my energy level rising slowly as well which I love. Right now I still have to rest a fair bit but I think I can hopefully get to a point where I can have enough to make it through a whole day without multiple rests. I am still young and there is a possibility I think. I hope so anyways. But if not and if I continue to have the amount I have now, that is ok too because I can't change it. I am learning to accept what I have-some days more than other days. lol After my surgeries I was wiped after simply walking to and from the bathroom so I suppose I know what it is like to have practically no energy. Maybe knowing what that feels like makes it easier to be ok with the level I have now. I would love to have more but I am learning to be ok with it if this is all I get. Going through what I have been through does make me thankful for any energy I do have. I do not take it for granted. If I am repeating myself in this post-I apologize. Some days it is difficult to express myself well. Another reason to be thankful for energy is being able to accomplish stuff. I just had to chuckle though because I am thinking I should finish up because I am exhausted. lol Writing about energy and I am exhausted. lol For this post I am thankful for energy.

Day 299: Safe trips

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This post is for yesterday because I was unable to post. For this post I am thankful for safe trips. What I mean is, every trip we take with our vehicle that is safe with no accidents. We went to Edmonton because I had an appointment with my specialist and we passed Ambulances on at least 5 different occasions. Each time the lights and sirens were going and I suppose they were passing us and not us passing them. It really made me think about every time we take our vehicle and every time we make it home safely. I know the chances of getting in accidents and I am always aware that it is good that I make it home safely but it is usually just a quick thought and not much else. The people who got in accidents most likely didn't expect to get in accidents either but they did. They didn't make it home safely. Their day drastically changed whether it was their fault or someone elses. Thinking about this made me very thankful for each safe trip I have had and there are many. It makes me thankful for the safe trip to and from Edmonton yesterday as well. It reminds me to be very alert while driving and thankful every time I pull into the garage safely. Often we can be good drivers but it doesn't mean we won't get in an accident because there are other people who are not good drivers who cause the accidents which can get us in an accident. Anyways for this post I am very thankful for each safe trip that I take and each time my family makes it home safely too.

Day 298: ladybugs

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This post is for Thursday because I was unable to post. I hurt my back pretty good and wasn't sitting at the computer much. I would like to apologize for my absence. For this post I am thankful for ladybugs. This year aphids are a big problem and ladybugs are a great natural defense against them. I learned that the larvae can eat up to 5000 aphids. That is a huge amount! I have not seen as many ladybugs as I have hoped to see but I am thankful for the ladybugs that are out there eating aphids. Not only are they useful but they are cute too. :)